What gives you peace and clarity?

Before, I mentioned a poison that could not be flushed out with regular water. Even if you were a criminal in the past and are no longer, the seeds of that old poisonous fruit still threaten to hold you back from truly living. Bad habits become cancerous, ineffective prison sentences erase years of potential experience, and pulling the trigger a second time becomes the end of second chances.

Why do I want to drink TLW? You showed me the Truth about myself that I couldn’t see before. And now I have a vision of places across the ocean, and connecting with people I could have never spoken to or understood before knowing you. Thank you!

But… since I am effected by that poison, sometimes I’m unsure about your will because all the pieces don’t match up like I think they should. But what do I know about perfection? I doubt that I’m a reliable narrator. I can’t self-witness like you can.

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Yesterday morning, I was shown an example of the correct default state to be in… Today, please reveal to me how to stay there.

Surely, the Living Water is not vaping. A long time ago, I got sucked into the abyss and became addicted to abuse. If the enemy gives you a cursed knife and you keep it, then you are bound to cut yourself with it. As an impulse, I kept reaching for it, but now I think the truth about vapes is, they are just a tool the enemy introduced to me so I could always hurt myself. But has it ever made me feel as content as I did resting on that airport chair or talking with that woman on the bench? No! Vaping is not aligned with the LW.

“Give me a drink”

please.